The power of midnight sweet chat

 

I love this kind of text :')

Like in the middle of night you were so busy but still thinking of someone you miss..

Sleepcall all night till the sun is up again, just like this:

This should be long lasting :')

No offense if someday you see this

 

So I send him a photo of me with a lot of acnes. And this is what he say.

In English : You are so damn ugly.

Indonesia: Kamu sangat jelek.

My insecurities level turn on to the highest level.

I wish I could die.

Testing since a very long time

Hi!
I just came here after a very long break. I have a lot stuff in a real life. Jk. I forgot that I have a blog, actually. Sorry. But no one read this, who should I sorry for? Nah.
I need to tell you my current life. I am doing a job as a Front Liner in RSU Bunda Palembang, and just hanging out with boyfriend, with my work-mate, and of course..my sister. And it's wasting my money, since I can not save it for my future. Hmm.. and these days, Idk why but I rarely checked my last conversation with anyone I could find, like my ex, my old friends. Anyone. No offense. Just read them.

And I would attach my last photo just to make sure you could see me now, but I made this post with my phone so I can't.
See ya when I see ya..

Learn from the past, no one can't change it.

I re-read all of your Blog's posts.
And all I do is.. reading, and remembering, and memorizing.
Also deleting. all the comment I've made at my worst time.
I wish you a happy ending story. And I wish you wish me too.

he>>>>me

Cause when you've got all you need. That will remind you that you're not good enough for it.
I'm not good enough for you.
I've thought about this a very long time ago...
I just don't wanna tell him that he's too good for me.
But actually he is.
What should I do then?

distance.

At first, i thought that i could survive this situation, and you are the one who couldn't.
It's been just one day. And now i know, i was wrong.
I am the only one who can't survive. I need you 24/7. I need you to bother me while i'm doing something. I need you to chat me about every single thing in every single time. I need you to focus on me only. I need you there while i'm awake from my sleep. I need you there when i'm visiting the doctor. I miss you, you know. I miss you until it hurts me so.
What are you doing there?  I thought that you wouldn't be this busy. But, once again, baby, i was wrong. You're so busy until i feel so lonely.
I know you're trying to reach me by phone in every single chance you had, but that's not enough for me. I know that was totally wrong, i'm such an egoist, childish, stupid. I have nothing to do here, i'll be the only one who will feel more lonely. But that's just too easy to make you confuse if I tell you this, so..
You know, i'm trying..


I have tried to post this 3 times, and always failed. Is that a sign for me to never post this? Hm?

God bless my vertebrae, please.

Diagnosa dokter sih Scoliosis Thoracolumbal. Parah, yes? Hmm.
Kata dokter, ini kongenital. Iya, bawaan lahir. Ayah syok sekali pas tau ini bawaan lahir. Aku cuma diem karena awalnya ga percaya juga ini bawaan lahir. Ga mungkin. Ini idiopatik, aku yakin.
Kata dokter, brace ga berguna lagi. Brace cuma buat penderita skoliosis dibawah 17 tahun. Aku sudah tau itu, cuma karena dokter sangat menegaskan kalau ini ga berguna lagi, aku down.
Tapi sudahlah.
Sudah terdiagnosa. Sudah terjadi. Ini skoliosis pada thorax yg sampe setinggi TH 10. Sebagaimana kita tau bahwa tulang vertebrae thoracalis itu ada 12. You know what that means, right.
Mulai besok aku bakal fisioterapi, tiga kali seminggu. Waw. Such a wow. Tiga kali seminggu seems so scare.
Wish me tons of luck ya guys.
I know no one will read this posting, but i don't know. I'm just...trying.