The Unspeakable Thing

I told him about you! :) And yes, he really admires a man who is always superb in every word that I used on every story that i told him ..
and you know what? He wants to meet you one day.
But calm down, I've told him not to dream further.
"You will not see him. never. forever."
That's what I told to him ..

Why are you so hard to achieve? Very difficult to grasp? Very difficult to be found?
Don't you know I really miss you?
You could always make me laugh without load. You can make me believe in my dreams.
yeah, I always dreamed to go to the Venice, Italy. I never believe it until you came and made ​​me continue to dream as you and I together will make it happen ..
Is that easy for you to make me rely on the empty hope that you give after you leave me so easily?
"I'm going broke."
Easy to say right?
Then, what about all the promises you made?
Let it be brought lost of memory as I live my life?
You've already permanently engraved in my brain memory, how could all the promises gone?
Have you ever thought about it, my dear? : ')

Every time I see you in the social network, I always wondered, what would you do next? What are you working on now? Whether your life is better now? Without me ..

Now my life is getting better, you know? Now I've started to forget you little by little. Since he came into my life, as he trying to be like you. To replace you (maybe until now still) in my heart.
But unfortunately, no matter how hard he tries .. You know, he's not going to be like you. Yeah, like you who always looks cool and seemed to not care about in front of your friends. But in front of me? You behaved as very matter, to me, you never forget to pamper me, command all my wish, understand how I behave like a child .. understand all the jokes that I mean (even that sometimes he did too). listening to the same song with you is the thing that I liked the most when we are together. Don't you remember the reason you ever love me?

Why are you so different now, dear?
Why do you make me feel sick of you?
You know, I can't hate you. Until whenever.

I hate to admit it, but .. never mind .. I'll make a new carving in my brain someday. Of course, not in the same place. :)

Happy 18th Birthday, dear! ;)